Crazy, I'm crazy for feeling so lonely.
I'm crazy, crazy for feeling so blue.
I knew you'd love me as long as you wanted
And then someday you'd leave me for somebody new.
Worry, why do I let myself worry?
Wond'ring what in the world did I do?
Crazy for thinking that my love could hold you
I'm crazy for trying and crazy for crying
And I'm crazy for loving you.
Crazy for thinking that my love could hold you
I'm crazy for trying and crazy for crying
And I'm crazy for loving you.
I love it because - aside from being awesome - it captures the true nature of love for co-dependents and love addicts. "If I just love you enough, I can make you love me back." "What? You love me? Sure you do now, but how long before you fall in love with someone else and leave me?" "Maybe if I hold on real tight and control who you meet and where you go and who you talk to, then you won't leave me." "I knew you'd leave me. I'm stupid for being sad about you, since you're a jerk. No. I'm the jerk. I did something wrong. I can do better. How do I get you back?" Crazy, crazy, crazy!
You think you're complimenting someone when you say you're "crazy about" them, but they really should be scared. This isn't normal thinking, kids. When someone says "my ex was crazy," they speak truth. But the person talking drove the car they went to Crazytown in. Did you ever see "Once More With Feeling" the "Buffy" musical? At one point Spike (vampire whose love for Buffy is unrequited) sings: "The torch I bear is scorching me. Buffy’s laughing I’ve no doubt. I hope she fries! I’m free if that bitch dies! I’d better help her out." Oh, Spike. Time to go see a vampire shrink. You are *crazy.*
Then there's the kinds of crazy codependents and love addicts flock to: addict crazy, emotionally unpredictable crazy, emotionally unavailable crazy, narcissistic crazy. Those are the heartbreakers. For those folks, I offer Alanis Morissette (lyrics by Meredith Brooks).
I'm a Bitch
I hate the world today.
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
but you look at me like maybe I'm an angel underneath
innocent and sweet.
Yesterday I cried.
You must have been relieved to see the softer side.
I can understand how you'd be so confused.
I don't envy you.
I'm a little bit of everything
all rolled into one.
Chorus
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your health, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way.
So take me as I am.
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man.
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
and I'm going to extremes,
tomorrow I will change
and today won't mean a thing.
Chorus
Just when you think you've got me figured out
the season's already changing.
I think it's cool you do what you do
and don't try to save me.
Chorus
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
when you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numbed, I'm revived
can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way.
That's some crazy shit, and we all identify with it on some level. Admit it. You either see yourself a little in that person, or you're attracted to someone like that. If not, then congratulations. You're sane.
Another favorite song, which I enjoy belting out in the car especially, is Gnarls Barkley's "Crazy":
I remember when, I remember
I remember when I lost my mind.
There was something so pleasant about that place.
Even your emotions have an echo in so much space.
And when you're out there without care
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much.
Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Possibly
And I hope that you are
Having the time of your life.
But think twice.
That's my only advice.
Come on now, who do you
Who do you, who do you, who do you think you are?
Ha ha ha, bless your soul
You really think you're in control?
Well, I think you're crazy.
I think you're crazy.
I think you're crazy.
Just like me.
It goes on, but you get the gist. I like this approach. Embrace the crazy. Accept that trying to control everything makes you crazy. Accept that departing from reality has its benefits.
I'm drawn to crazy. It can be fun, interesting, challenging, pleasant, and certainly exciting. Normal bores me. Does that make me crazy? Possibly. Well, if you've read this far, I think you're crazy - just like me.
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